I’ve made a terrible mistake. I went on a stupid date with someone and he’s great and nice and sweet and into me (not my type though at all) and it was so incredibly painful. I’m not ready. I don’t think I’ll be ready till I have to force myself to be. Till I know it’s over for sure. I’ve realized today that I don’t have anything I need to work on or improve. I’m perfectly fine. And I want us to be together again. I want him back. God this fucking sucks.