It’s not that I’m unhappy. I’m actually the happiest that I’ve been in a long time. I just don’t think that I’m quite there yet. Im still yearning and searching for more. I know it’s within reach though. And I experience moments of happiness too. The best are when they’re fueled purely by me and not someone else. Because this time around I want to be happy because of me and not because of anyone else. Because of how I love myself and the change that I am working to create within myself. I think I’ll be the happiest when i finally learn to just be content and happy with myself. And not feel the need anymore to fill the holes inside of me. That will be my happiness.